Yan Ping

08 Aug 09

hi dearest peep, I'm back to blog. have being busy recently due to my mom operation. needed to help out to do housework. I'm greated that my mom is now fully recovered. thank god!! well, stayed out till late on the 080809, was out with a group of car racer for a race at orchard. Guess what?? There's TP around everwhere. But, i believe everyone enjoyed themselves on that day.

14 - 15 Aug 09

Just came back from my Batam trip with a group of friends. Woke up early in the morning on 14 Aug 09 to prepared and met them at vivo. took so long to reach batam, 1 hour 30 min. hotel looked so high class, everything was so new, even the hotel is new. when shopping on the day itself, shop till so tired. everyone looked so tired yet, still drink at night. same thing, woke up in the noon, went to the nearest shopping for lunch. everything seems so expensive there but is not expensive at all. everyone was so excited to do spa, so relaxing. miss it so much. will be back again.

heard something about this person(A) , i don't understand why must (A) does all those thing. I felt really disappointed on (A). Well, disappointed as a friend of mine. I've always thought that (A) is a mature person, but, never did i expert that (A) is such a person. Not only talk things behind people back, but also other things. Something that (A) always thought that (A) will never do it. But, why am i hearing things about (A) doing things that (A) always dislike? Haiz, once you mixed with the wrong companies, you're gone. Know (A) for such a long time, never see (A) doing things like this, but why? why must (A) choose this path? No wonder i always heard (A) saying (A) like the life (A) is having now. finally, i understand why....

I've been loving you for so long

I've been dreaming of you all night long

I keep telling myself some other time

Maybe you will be mine

I keep asking myself why

Just because of this damn love I cry

And now I have to let you fly

Even if it means I'm going to die

I love you that's true

I want to be with you yes I do

I want to feel being loved by you

But that's just a dream that wont come true

Now my love it's time to say goodbye

I promise you will never see me cry

But before I let you go

I just want to say I love you so..

痛是什麽感觉

是想呐喊却无言

心被你一片一片

撕下还不肯破裂

是谁让你转变

不再留恋我的体贴

你用背叛告别从前

我只想对你更好不埋怨

我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲

熬过宽容的疲惫

幸福会给我抚慰

心疼你的泪水

原谅你的不对

只求交心

不苛求完美

我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲

你会让我不后悔

这样把你宝贝

但你却教会我懂爱你可悲

爱不在了

做什麽都枉费

have anyone gone through things like how i m going through now?? have anyone being lied by a group of friends?? A(girl) called and told me that B(guy) met with an accident. But actually they're all playing mahjong at C(guy) place. I was like a fool, fool by them when they're all playing mahjong. I actually forgive them and carry on being friends. Am i being silly or i can let thing go easily. well, no one seems to understand how am i doing and going through things. I'm really tired of all the things that i'm going through. Things are not as simple as what they think. But have anyone tried to understand what i am doing? things became my fault when i didn't do anything. Why does this world looked so complicated?? why does humans look so complicated too? Do i really have to beware of making friends? I really don't know, i'm breaking down soon. I'm just so tired of everything......

I think of him and our time together

And the tears come to my eye

I never wanted to see him go

Never wanted to say goodbye

Our times was so special to me

But i guess its time to say goodbye

He wanted to spread his wing and fly

To hold him back

I guess that's wrong

I always said you only live once

And you have to do what it takes

To make yourself content and happy

Even if it means some hearts will break

So i let him go and said goodbye

And he was on his way

If i ever really was in his hearts

He'll come back one day....